It sounds like you have really made a good attempt to turn your life around — so congratulations to you for that! 😀 She was with you when you contacted her on FB most recently all the way up until you told her you were going to have a drink to celebrate your birthday — that’s when you lost her. She doesn’t want you if you’re drinking. She wants a very healthy man in her life. If you can be that man, you have a shot.
Cultivate a sober lifestyle and stay in touch without pushing, so she can learn that you’re really committed to not drinking and being a better version of who you were.
At the same time, read Date Out of Your League, [url]https://www.askapril.com/relationship-dating-advice/date-out-of-your-league.html[/url], so you can understand why women go for certain types of men — and become that guy who gets the girl.
I think you can do this, but it’s going to take discipline and patience. Let em know how it goes, and please follow me @AskAprilcom on Twitter.