Marriage troubleTazI’ve been bi sexual since I can remember, I think i was in standard 8 in highschool, he didnt know 4 sure but suspected coz he heard it from friends years ago, when he asked me, I denied it.
He caught me on 3 occassions already, I blamed being drunk both times, said I didnt know what I was doing. The second time he caught me, he ended up kissing the same girl i was, we fought about it, he blamed me, said that “he wanted to feel what I was feeling and thats how I saw it. The third time he caught me I was in a serious relationship with a butch girl who would pick me up at our home and call me constantly (it was pretty clear we were dating) I confessed it to him and wanted to leave because at the time I thought that with her is where i want to be. He then told my mother about “our problems”, the 3 of us then had a long talk about it on how to make things work and to get a sense of direction. (This was about 3-4 months ago)
My husband confessed to me of “all” the wrongs he had done, he slept with 2 women while married to me, everything was out on the table and we decided that we were gonna make things right for the sake of our kids and because we still do love each other but honestly when he told me that, my heart just sank, I’ve been feeling guilty all the while he was doing his own thing and lying to me as well.
Since then we’ve been working on our relationship, we’ve been going out more, spending more time together with the kids, we’ve both been blessed with better jobs, things are going great it’s just that I cant stop thinking about him with those other women and am not sure if he’s stopped cheating. His reason for cheating cant be because i was cheating on him because he never knew at the time he was cheating so I keep asking myself why? Is it because he’s a man and men are easily tempted or am I not enough? It may sound selfish knowing all the wrong that I’ve done but I’ve seriously changed and really want to make things work for the kids and myself, I just dont want to look back on my life with regret that I’ve married a cheating man.
