[Anonymous]

Thanks for replying April, I read what you had to say initially, and you were right, we didn’t really mesh all that well in terms of our lives, but I had to take my shot. I had waited a decade for that moment and I had to take it. I was beginning to accept that we broke up and it was over, that we were still friends and life would move on.

So why am I back?

Well, as I was trying to cope with the loss of my ex girlfriend/best friend/my first (yeah, she was all three of these things), I check her Facebook profile and she already had a new boyfriend, with the posted anniversary of the day after we broke up. Ironically, Friday the 13th. Two days before we broke up, she didn’t talk to me and the couple brief conversations that we have and I told her I loved her, she didn’t say anything back. I can only really assume the worst had really happened. It wasn’t the job that bothered her (like I said, it didn’t the three weeks prior when we got together), it was that she met someone else. I was kind of upset with this, as I think most people would. She either broke up with me to get with the new guy, or got together with him after we just broke up and declared him the greatest thing since sliced bread. Another couple days past and I was thinking to myself that.. well, if she’s happy, I’m happy. Obviously I didn’t do enough to keep her and she’s happy with this new guy. Not the best feeling in the world, but we only dated three weeks (even though I spent my adult life trying to date her), and she was my friend, so I had to let it slide.

Then.. then I get a message from an old friend of hers and mine. It turns out that my ex-girlfriend fairly bluntly used to make fun of me, call me names and make smart remarks behind my back about my appearance and things about me, back then and now. My friend also said that my ex never liked me, for my looks, not for anything like that. In fact, she just didn’t really like me. She said my ex goes around and gets with guys who get her stuff and make her happy for a while, then goes on and meets someone else. My only head-scratching moment there was that if she knew I wasn’t going to get her many things, why did she bother going out with me in the first place? Kind of had an epiphany about it all. A lot of what she talked about when we first started having feelings for each other, was that I was in college, I was “doing something with myself” that I was “on the right path” and that her and me both doing good. I guess all that meant for me was that I might have some money. Ahh, I guess that’s why she wanted me to get more money with a job, right? Right..

Well, I’m really at a loss now.. so not only was she not acting like my friend, by talking behind my back and putting me down intentionally, but she ended up only going out for me because I may or may not have money. And when I spent what I had on her and myself when we went out, she left and found someone else new, either a couple days before we broke up or the day after. No girlfriend, no friend, no anything now.

So there’s my sad story.