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We have been on several dates. It has been kind of hard as of late but that is something I should try to do more of (Wooing her). Her parents have temorary custody currently. She does not have custody because of some accucations of drugs and depression. She has had some problems but has been and is currently getting help. Child services is over reacting and not giving us any help.
When it comes to the “it” I talked about it isn’t just sex. That is part of it but not the end all and be all. Some of it is just holding her but sometimes she pulls away. The best way to describe the it is establishing a physical connection. In my dating and relationship history I have been sensitive to my partner pulling away. I take it as a strong sign of rejection. When someone pulls away from me in just the slightest or doesn’t want me near them physicaly I take it really hard and as a sign that they don’t find me attractive or want to be near me. I don’t feel right forcing anything physical because I see it as forcing myself on someone who does not want me.
We connect on so many levels. We are both highly intelegent, have similar spiritual beliefes, and we have differences that both of us are attracted to. I love the way she always spends time to get ready to even go out the door to just get the mail.
She is attracted to my sincerity, kindness and admires how I can remain calm even in emotionally tense situations. I am attracted to how smart and inquisitive she is. She is also very beautiful.
I know there is a lot of stress right now in both of our lives. And I know the effect it can have on a person. I have a degree in mental health so I do have some idea that this is only temporary but my rational mind and emotional mind get in each other’s way. I am just afraid that when we get the stressors in our lives worked out that I will still be hypersenitive to being rejected and it will affect our relationship.