coolsnewI have made a commitment to her and she has basicly told me that she is freaked out by it. She has lost the engagement ring I gave her and did not even notice it. She wasn’t even that upset about loosing it. I have also found out she has been texting and sending sexual photos to another guy (one that gives her pills). This weekend she has really been pushing me away.
After talking with a couple of friends I am going to confront her with what I know. I still love her and wish I could help support her but after the lies I don’t think that is possible. I am going to help her one last time and let her know that if she gets her act together that I might give her a second chance.
My best friend told me I deserve better. It hurts because I know she can be the best. It is tearing me up that it has come to this. I feel betraied let down and a whole host of other feelings. I am scared for her and the kids future and my own. I have not been very successful with any relationship. I keep getting hurt and or let down.
My fear for me is being alone. I am 35 and feel like I will never find the love I deserve.
It might be time for me to just become a hermit. When I can either afford it or have insurance for it I may seek counseling.
Thanks for your help.
