in my opinion you are too insecure to love. that isn’t a very healthy state of being to bring into a relationship. you should do things to help your insecurities and work on them so that you won’t be. knowing that you are not secure in yourself it isn’t really fair to the other person. a relationship is only as healthy as the least healthy person. even if you found a very confident woman she will always be brought down to tend to your insecurities. that does not make for a very happy love filled life together. i would consider dating yourself for a while until you become more secure and confident. to me an insecure person is wishy washy and doesn’t know what they want because they are so unsure of themselves. how can that type of person know what they want in a partner if they don’t even know or secure in themselves?