[bigheartonsleeve]

He does not want me to go. He said he would be very sad. That it’s hard enough when we go 2 or 3 weeks without being in each other’s presence. And I agree that it’s hard. Our talks about the future are kind of vague but its because the future is not written. He hasn’t been accepted into a med school program yet and I just finished my undergrad and moved to my hometown as we were getting to know each other. Our connection was still so strong that we continued to grow attached despite the distance. I fear he will see this as me pulling away –but I know I want to be with him absolutely. And he has committed to me entirely. He has included me in every step of applications –making sure I’d be willing to move where he is applying to. He talks about being able to buy us a house in a matter of years. He talks about how good he will be to me when I’m pregnant… He is simply the best… Here is my pro and con….

Going to Korea

PROS
Satisfy my adventurist spirit
Not wonder What If I had…
Learn a lot about another country/culture
Get experience in education/ work with children
Earn 48,000 in a year
Live in my own apartment –get out of Fresno/living with dad sitch

CONS
I will not know anyone
Jeopardize my relationship with Lewis
No sex
Dead end job
Come back to being unemployed like millions of Americans
Time I could be spending building a life with the love of my life
Time I could be spending moving up in a company, or studying for GREs, or making something positive IN America.

Staying with Lewie

PROS
I love him and it’s my natural instinct to see that through
We will have a beautiful and successful life
I already have a good job with an airline I can see through—many opportunities for raises and advancement
Doors will always open; I don’t have to leave the country to know that.
Lewie and I could spend a lot of time together to ensure we’re ready for moving in together when he starts med school in September 2012.
He is also a travel enthusiast so we could do it together
The job is always hiring so I could go back to it if things didn’t work out.

CONS
I may wonder about the experiences I could have had in Korea while I’m working hard and waiting for him to finish med school.

I’m pretty much answering my own question that I think he is worth it. But I just need some support on the decision I guess because SO MANY of my friends don’t get it or agree. They thing we are too young and NONE of my decisions should be influenced on a petty boyfriend when in our early twenties…