So I went to a foreign country to continue my university studies. There I met my girlfriend, we started as friends and half an year after we were in a relationship.
We are quite close to each other, she is my first, but even so things go quite smoothly. The only period we were not together was in the summer for two months due to us living in different countries. We are quite similar in interests and so on.
We decided that we should move together and I’ve been searching for an appartment for several months now. I also have dificulties with the money, changing jobs on and off. She is suported by her parents so she doesnt worry about money right now. I’ve met her parents and they like me. They invited me to come visit them in the summer. Ok the problem is that I just feel uncertain about our relationship. This could be because I am in quite a bunch of stress due to work and apartment search and am somewhat unhappy. Whenever I am with her I feel happy, but sometimes I remember reality and get really sad about things.
I’ve tried talking to her about how I feel and so on but almost everytime it ends in ME trying to calm HER down and making a joke of my position. Her friend told me that things are not bad between us. She is from her country and we havent really met, just chatted.
I feel like she doesnt really give her all to the relationship, she never searched for an appartment f.x., but then again, she is shy and closed person. I also feel like I dont know what to do. I dont know if things are going well as I have nothing to compare to, but my intuition tells me its ok. I just have the feeling of uncertanty and its killing me.
tl;dr – have been together with my girlfriend for an yean and we want to move in together. I feel uncertain if things are going well between us, even though there are many things that say that we are ok. I love her but I am not sure of that or maybe that she still loves me. I am a very lost msn that needs advice as to what to do in life.
