Well I got the guts and I left. It’s been a month now since we have been apart. I have been really good and not responding to his calls or texts and I have totally stopped reaching out to him completely. I spoke to him his week because it was his birthday and it just makes me wonder about us. The thing is, at the end of the day, I don’t want to be with him because I feel it would be too complicated. I know I can’t trust him, so to me, what’s the point? The one thing that keeps drawing me back is the undying love I have for him and him for me. We just fit together so perfectly. Our sex was amazing, we got along like best friends and we just had this mutual understanding of each other that I never had with another man. We clicked. I don’t know how else to put it. I have spent some time away and started to date someone just recently. He’s a nice guy, etc. but all I do is think about my old boyfriend. I miss him, I still love him. I know in time this will go away but it is so hard.
