Thank you for your advice! Things have progressed:
We met Sunday at his place. Joked around, took a nap. He pretended he didn’t want to get up, and said “Use your imagination”. We headed towards rope play, but he teased he would leave so I told him to stop, and he took that as a sign I wasn’t interested. After talking, it was clear we were DTF. Affectionate foreplay, lots of laughs. Intense but respectful; he took control and kept it at my comfort level. We finished about the same time, then just kind of held each other for a minute, and looked each other in the eye.
I kissed him (the lips was the only place he didn’t kiss me), we napped then talked and were fine with FWB. To me, we’d talked circumstance, but not emotions. At one point, he said he wouldn’t want me to wait for him because he wasn’t worth it (I didn’t mention waiting; why bring it up?).
He got frustrated because I wasn’t saying what I wanted to, but I couldn’t read him, so I didn’t think I could. He encouraged me to take risks and it again felt like he was talking about vague things that potentially cross the FWB line.
He winded down and ate, I was on the couch. I asked him a few times if he was going to read (he’d said I could stay as long as I wanted, but I wasn’t so sure anymore). He told me I didn’t need to ask and it’s a habit that wears people down if you ask too much (since he does that too). He said he didn’t want to make it seem like he was angry/yelling, but I felt like I messed up. I got up and got my stuff, said I was heading out, and he walked me to the door, we hugged, etc. He seemed very tired.
I texted him later because I felt like I fucked up when trying not to, and I really did want to meet/catch up again. I texted him this afternoon when my head was clear and asked specifically if he was open to going out around his b-day. Will leave him alone now.
Am I so stupid to think his feelings might not be entirely platonic, and he just isn’t willing to go there yet? He says he can’t read my mind, but it’s the same for me! He says things, but it’s like he’s holding back and his actions don’t feel in line with how he treats his female friends.
HELP!
